Lady Gaga became pregnant after being raped by a music producer: “I had a total psychotic break”
Lady Gaga has revealed in a new interview that she fell pregnant after being raped by a music producer.
The singer recalled the harrowing incident on Oprah Winfrey and Prince Harry’s new Apple TV+ show The Me You Can’t See, explaining how it occurred when she was 19.
“I was 19 years old and I was working in the business, and a producer said to me: ‘Take your clothes off’. And I said no,” she said.
“And I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn’t stop. They didn’t stop asking me, and I just froze and I don’t even remember.
“First I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. And then I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off pregnant on a corner. At my parents’ house because I was vomiting and sick. Because I’d been being abused. I was locked away in a studio for months.”
The singer has previously spoken about the ordeal, but additionally revealed in the new interview that it led her to experience instances of self-harm and psychotic episodes where she threw herself against a wall.
“You think you’re gonna feel better ’cause you’re showing somebody: ‘Hey, look I’m in pain.’ It doesn’t help,” she said. “I always tell people: ‘Tell somebody. Don’t show somebody.’”
The singer has never revealed the name of her alleged abuser.
“I had a total psychotic break, and for a couple years I was not the same girl,” she added.
Opening up on her mental health, Gaga said: “Even if I have a six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad.
“And when I say feel bad, I mean want to cut, think about dying, wondering if I’m ever gonna do it.”