He hasn’t commented much  but Kevin Hart opened up the harrowing incident on a recent episode of The Joe Rogan Experience. The celebrated comedian was involved in a single-vehicle car crash that left him unable to walk. After spinal surgeries and months of physical therapy, Kevin Hart is just getting back to feeling at 100 percent. When discussing the accident, he told Joe Rogan about the “biggest cry” he’d ever had in his life when returning home post-surgery.

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“My biggest cry in life came from the first day that because I never had to see that house again,” he said. “Like there was an option of me never seeing that home again. There was an option of me never walking on that driveway again. There was an option of me never seeing my wife and my kids again.” As, Hart said he made sure to keep a smile on his face even though it contradicted how he was feeling.

“I lied in the hospital because I didn’t want them to know that I was having pain because I thought that they were gonna stop me from letting me continue to try my walks,” he said, adding that there was even a point where he couldn’t even “wipe [his] own ass.” He tried getting back on his feet without his walker just weeks after his surgery, but he believed he should have taken more time to recover.

“My son doubled as nurse, my daughter doubled as nurse, [my wife] Eniko doubled as it. My brother came,” he said. “That’s when the care about what was important really changed … The things that you think are important, you get to looking around at a hospital, almost four walls — none of that sh*t that you think is important is in there. It’s one of these people.” Watch Hart’s episode below.